Time

I  couldn't sleep  again and listening to some soothing music such as Yo-Yo Ma's , "
THE SILK ROAD JOURNEY"  helped me a little bit  to compose this mini thought in my head .

Since I  was able to  capture a beautiful  photo  of the sky  last 10 October   ,  I  decided to transfer the  thought in my photo .

NOTES:

Poem was written in  26 October  2013
Photo taken  in  10 October 2013  ( Ocean City , Maryland )

PHOTO AND THOUGHT ARE ORIGINAL WORK !

Please do  not copy or share without my permission .



Thanks !

NONENITY ( Original composition )

You  can call it whatever , but this was a random  thought that  came out of my head just jot it down in a peace of paper and transfered it in  one of my photos I  took  in  Ocean  City , Maryland last  year.

NOTES:

Poem was written in  15 August  2013
Photo taken  in  8 October 2012   ( Ocean City , Maryland )

PHOTO AND POEM ARE ORIGINAL WORK !

Please do  not copy or share without my permission .

Thanks !

the WALL .... ( An Original Composition)

 NOTE :

I  usually write poems anything that's on my mind. This was was originally written in February  8th , 2009 in my  old date planner, and now I decided  to  share it here  in  my personal  blog .

It's hard to  let go,
Specially if you  had build your dreams together

That  no matter what  happens,
The two  of you  will  have to face the obstacles forever
Standing side by side as ONE

But the unexpected happened,
and you have to face the truth.

The ugly painful truth
You have to LIE
You have to PRETEND

And no matter what  you  tell  yourself,
It is one of the hardest thing

You'll ever had to  do ...
To forget the person , 
whom you have

CARED for
LOVED for

for all these years .

Ironic isn't it? 
the person who meant the world to you,
now becomes the person that  you  hated most .

You  go on circles , figuring out what  went on that  day , 
when GOODBYES were said .

You  thought of the right words to  say ,
But it broke down your  firm wall.

It broke your  heart 
and yes you felt so deeply  apart.

I'm Hurt . . .

 I don't know what I want in life. 
 I don't know what I want right now.
 All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside
      that it's eating me,
      and one day,
 there won't be any of me left. 

 - from REDNECK GIRL

No Puede

NOTE: I wrote this poem way back in  2006 when my ex  had broken up with me hoping that we will  still  patch things up  ...

one of my   original creations

Enjoy!

I usually stare at the dark filled shiny dotted sky ...
then this round bright thing caught my eye...

I closed my eyes and thought of you,
I wonder what your doing
I wonder if you think of me too,

I miss the days you made me smile
I miss the nights you showed your thoughtfulness
I miss everything that  you  do
and
I specially miss you

 .... pero no puede enamorada con el

Stages of a BROKEN HEART

 

Before anything else , I would want to make it clear that I'm posting this entry  just  for a mere recollection of what  it feels like to  have a BROKEN HEART.... and to  help  someone understand the stages of having a broken heart.

 I can  call  this  my  Little Memoir of my  one experiences with the so called thing about Love ....

LOVE and TO  BE LOVED by someone is such a wonderful  thing, however sometimes there are circumstances that  this uber happy feeling will become HISTORY ... and it just comes without any warning.

 Having a broken heart  is one of the worst  feeling you  could have experience as a person, nothing can prepare you  for it ... you  even go to a trance that   it feels like the whole world had stopped moving and it practically  makes you insane for quite some time ( from my  own experience I  should know nakakaloka! )


So  what  are these stages of a BROKEN Heart.

1. Denial - We tend to  deny  that  it's over as in over na talaga ang hirap idagest  ika nga sa tagalog , para ka mababaliw . So  if it helps , confide to someone whom you trust and can lend you words of wisdom.

2. Anger & Depression - We eventually have mixed emotions we are super angry of course that lahat na ata ng cuss words e nagamit mo na . Then there's the tendency  of staying away from close friends and even family members .

3. Stay away  from  the EX - We often hear people say,
" WELL YOU GUYS CAN BE FRIENDS "  hmmm ... I can say  is " YES " , if you are TOTALLY OVER him already na kahit iparada nya sa harap mo  na may  iba na sya , it won't hurt you not a 'lil bit .


 It is good to  be friends with the ex when you have HEALED completely and ready  to  be friends with him. But after a breakup it's not good to  go parading yourself in front of him because you have this notion that since you're thinking of him , maybe he is thinking of you too ( reality girls , guys are really different when dealing with their emotions ). You don't want to look like a desperada  every time you write to him, talk to him or visit his house, you're taking a step backward instead of forward.

4. Acceptance & Learning- To be able to truly move on, you have to fully digest what happened to turn the relationship sour. Identify the reasons that contributed to the breakup, what role you played in those reasons and what you will do differently in the future for a successful relationship. Don't beat yourself up. Relationships run their course for a reason, and they prepare you for the time when you actually do find Mr. Right. You learn with every experience in life, and breakups are no different. 

There are 2 quotes come to mind when healing a broken heart:

TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS
                          and
WHERE ONE DOOR CLOSES, ANOTHER ONE OPENS

two quotes that are  yeah cheesy,  but absolutely  true.

 While you may not be able to see the light at the end of the dark tunnel now,  the day will come when you'll know that your broken heart has officially healed and you can 
LAUGH OUT LOUD when you look back at those painful memories .

Remember WHAT GOES AROUND , COMES AROUND

the Pain Won't Go Away

 
[photo by  Piggygirlrocks of Devianart.com]

I  woke  up  this  morning with  the  feeling  of  emptiness inside me and
I  just sat in the little  corner of  my bed and started sobbing .
I  found myself just  walking toward the new football park  that  our  township had built .

It was quiet , it felt like I was in a another world just  so  peaceful...

With a lot  of  things had happened in my LIFE these past  months, it felt good to  be ALONE ....

Still trying to suck all what had happened with my "SO CALLED LOVE LIFE "

It was hard to comprehend ... as if I  was the one to blame on everything.

I wanted to  go home so  bad and patch things up, but this is so impossible to do.

How can I  make him stay and be strong for this relationship we had built together, when he decided  that it's all over.

those words he let go  stabbed me like a thousand times.....

I will  try  to  post more of  what  I'm feeling , but right now the emotions I  am feeling can't be describe by words .

It felt so  numb!







 

Old Wounds

[ photo by photoshopcreative.co.uk ]

From past  relationships  to the  next ,  we  sometimes  learn  from it  or  sometimes we DON'T we tend to  get BLIND  ,  from  the  promises to  the  false hopes .

Every  fall  we  learn to stand up on our  own  and  be  strong  all over  again  and  again , but  sometimes when we fall  it doesn't  mean  we  get stronger  ,   but  sometimes  it  opens  old wounds  that  healed  over time , wounds  that  remind  you  how  hurtful  it is  to  be  betrayed and  be stabbed  in the  back.

LOVE can  make  you  feel great !

Makes you  happy  and  seems  like  that  there's no  ending  to  it  but reality  is  ,  LOVE also  hurts  , and  yeah  it  hurts  bad! 

TEARS

  There are people that  makes a tremendous impact  in our  LIVES

  Some will make us feel the greatest  feeling of 
  JOY & HAPPINESS ....

  and

 Some will HURT you

 that  the PAIN you  feel

               is like a butcher's knife, cutting DEEPLY  to  the bones ...

                                            

  and

LEAVING  you  BLEEDING & DYING inside ....