the Pain Won't Go Away

 
[photo by  Piggygirlrocks of Devianart.com]

I  woke  up  this  morning with  the  feeling  of  emptiness inside me and
I  just sat in the little  corner of  my bed and started sobbing .
I  found myself just  walking toward the new football park  that  our  township had built .

It was quiet , it felt like I was in a another world just  so  peaceful...

With a lot  of  things had happened in my LIFE these past  months, it felt good to  be ALONE ....

Still trying to suck all what had happened with my "SO CALLED LOVE LIFE "

It was hard to comprehend ... as if I  was the one to blame on everything.

I wanted to  go home so  bad and patch things up, but this is so impossible to do.

How can I  make him stay and be strong for this relationship we had built together, when he decided  that it's all over.

those words he let go  stabbed me like a thousand times.....

I will  try  to  post more of  what  I'm feeling , but right now the emotions I  am feeling can't be describe by words .

It felt so  numb!







 

Old Wounds

[ photo by photoshopcreative.co.uk ]

From past  relationships  to the  next ,  we  sometimes  learn  from it  or  sometimes we DON'T we tend to  get BLIND  ,  from  the  promises to  the  false hopes .

Every  fall  we  learn to stand up on our  own  and  be  strong  all over  again  and  again , but  sometimes when we fall  it doesn't  mean  we  get stronger  ,   but  sometimes  it  opens  old wounds  that  healed  over time , wounds  that  remind  you  how  hurtful  it is  to  be  betrayed and  be stabbed  in the  back.

LOVE can  make  you  feel great !

Makes you  happy  and  seems  like  that  there's no  ending  to  it  but reality  is  ,  LOVE also  hurts  , and  yeah  it  hurts  bad! 

TEARS

  There are people that  makes a tremendous impact  in our  LIVES

  Some will make us feel the greatest  feeling of 
  JOY & HAPPINESS ....

  and

 Some will HURT you

 that  the PAIN you  feel

               is like a butcher's knife, cutting DEEPLY  to  the bones ...

                                            

  and

LEAVING  you  BLEEDING & DYING inside ....

YOU V. 2 { Orig Scribbles }

[ photo by   fiercest   from  createblog ]

the words that I said,

meant everything to me

 the dreams I had

  I wish I could share it with you someday.

the hopes i  wanted,

  I hoped you'll appreciate it someday.

your laughter had always 

brought a smile to my face.

your thoughtful words had. 

encouraged me to believe.

HALA HEPE

Hala HEPE!

5:30am   [ the usual time for me to  wake up  ] 

 My phone rang  at exactly  5:30am and  it's him sinu [ sinu pa nga ba ? hehehehe ] 

Hepe: Mahal ko! Wake up wake up na!

Moi: Hello mahal! Thanks for waking me  up!

Hepe: Love you wake up na ha?

Moi: Opo! Thanks !

I was  already  getting ready  to  get to shower when  after  5 mins  my phone  rang and sinu pa nga  ba  ulit  ... hehehehe


Hepe: Mahal ko gising na !
          I LOVE YOU!

Moi: Hi mahal!... Gising na po ako ! [ sabay tawa ]

Hepe: { tawa din sya } kala ko kase nag 5mins ka pa  dyan  o gising na  ha! Love u mahal!

then after  that  mini conversation,  i had to cont  with my daily rituals  before going to work .

  It takes me an hour  to drive to work so  when i  got off from our driveway,  it was still early, no traffic in sight just chillin' to  the awesome voice  of    Leona Lewis's  [ take note  i kept playing and playing  and playing  her songs .. ganda kase e ] 

 When suddenly in a abrupt way , i felt something  cold that  that went down to  my cleavage 
[ hahahaha! ] . Let's say  it was cold na  napasigaw pa ako ng AHHHH ! 

and siempre  tinignan ko  what  the heck was that  thing ... and  then lalu  ako  napatili  ng  gusto when i found out it was  my pendant ! 

Hala HEPE ! [ sabay  kiss sa pendat ]

the  chain  broke off  from the base mismo  (*_*) .

I was so sad .. 

When i got  to  work  already  i just had to tell him what happened  with the pendant he gave me for our 1st monsary ....

Hay ,  asar man ako , can't do anythign about it  but to wait  till  i get it fix but he said  buy nalng daw kami  ng new chain  ...hay(-_-)

STARBUCKS ON THE 11TH MONTH

[ originally posted in my Blogger and  Multiply blog during my  B-day ^_^ woosh!]

Elises's own version of "Crazy For You" woke me up this morning as my phone was ringning off the hook .

I answered it with my eyes still shut closed, all I can hear was his super sweet voice and his super kakakilig greeting,

" Happy Monsary Mahal! ^_^!"

My sleepines went off just like that !!!

I thought he forgot about it [ glad he didn't ]

Just before he was off to bed that night ... he called me again and even treated himself a StarbucksMocha Frap due to my request [ aka parang date namin for the monsary ito kaso magisa sya hehehe ]

Later that day , it was my turn to treat myself during my lunchbreak , so I got myself a Mocha Double Chip Mint Frap [ take note VENTI ] , Raspberry Granola Parfait and a Pesto Salad. I was able to text him about my little treat for our monsary [ magisa ako huhuhu ] this was around 3pm EST [ 3am in MANILA] when my phone rang ... si Hepe na naman

He sounded sleepy & tired but again greeted me before he retired to bed [ so sweet! ] and told me to enjoy every single drop of my frap and every bit of my salad , then uttered the words ...

"HAPPY MONSARY AGAIN AND I LOVE YOU MAHAL! ^-^"

YOU { Orig. Scribbles }

[ image BY   LollypopLyts   captured from  createblog.com ]

the sound of your voice cheers me up,

your comforting words lifts my spirits up.

i can't describe how happy i am,

how much joy you brought to my life all over again.

you're my inspiration,

you're my joy,

you're my everything i could ask for,

i'm so grateful with the LORD up above,

for giving me someone like you,

i can cherish for the rest of my life.

- jane